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Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Why aren't there any kind souls in the world anymore?

If you could help someone else, would you? There are a lot of people in the world that need help in some form or another. Many of us would want to help them out, and change their way of life to a more positive one, but there are many of us that wouldn't even bat an eyelid at the fact that they are in such a situation. Now let me ask you this...

Would you like it if you were in the same situation, and you were reaching out to everyone you could in order to better yourself, but no one would help, and no one cared? Maybe you ran out of money and couldn't get to work, or you needed to see a doctor. Yes, all these things require money but a lot of the time, when people are in these situations, aren't there because they are begging other people for their money. They just want support and people kind enough to donate so that they can get back on their feet, and then THEY can give back to the people that had helped them but they get negative remarks from others such as 'GO GET A JOB' or "I DON"T CARE' or "SORRY BUT WE CAN"T HELP YOU' 
Imagine having all of those things said to you, yet you would go all out no matter if u were broke or not to help someone else. 
Greed has overcome everyone and everything in this day and age. If you cant get it for free, don't get it at all, and people tend to go for that option. It's not right and it's not fair. But, sometimes when you are in a situation such as myself, where I cannot just go out and get a job like most other people. The problem with this is that people don't want to listen to your life and your reasoning's. They just see it as you're begging and no i don't want to help. Everyone should want to help. No matter how big or how small, if it means that its making someone else's life that tiny bit easier, or putting a smile on that persons face, why not?
I know not everyone has a lot of money to give away, but anything helps. 
We as a society have to think about everyone else before ourselves. Think that no matter how fortunate or unfortunate u are, there are others that always need help and if there is a way that we can help that person then so be it, we should help that person. 

Friday, October 20, 2017

How a karaoke app almost over took my life and I stupidly let it

Smule is a singing karaoke app found on the App Store on IOS and android. Over the years I had become accustomed to this app and how it worked and it started to take over my life. I was the one that decided it was more important than my real life and my marriage and I know now that it was wrong of me to have thought that or to have even done that. People make mistakes. It’s part of life I know but I started to realize how I had put all my effort into an app that although I knew was fun, didn’t have to be made out like it was a priority over everything else in my life, which it ended up being. Now it’s time to make things right. I have to. For me and for my family. If I don’t, I will be miserable for the rest of my life and I don’t want that. Who wants that? To have to live where the one thing that I fought for and love slowly disappears because I made the wrong choice? Yes, I’ll admit It is fun and it can help with depression and sadness that people may have in their life, but when it starts to consume them, turn them into someone they are not or personality wise they become someone else, and it starts to create a wall between them and reality then there is a big problem. 

I remember the first time I found out about Smule. I was just perusing through the App Store and it caught my eye. I love singing and It was an app I had never heard of and thought hey why not, it sounds fun. Well.. I was right. I loved every second of it, singing my heart away and meeting such amazing people. When I got more into smule and I was being more active singing on it, I decided to become VIP so I could open songs and sing more often. This is where it started to all go downhill. I started to post 10, then 20 then 30 songs one after the other in a day, like I had nothing better to do. It got worse when I started auditioning for competitions. I would abuse housework, didn’t do stuff I was supposed to do as a wife, stopped spending time with my husband because I wanted to sing more than be with him. I didn’t want to do anything cos all I wanted to do was sing and then I’d get upset because people wouldn’t sing with me or I couldn’t join their songs before they expired. I used it an an excuse for my life and it ended up taking a toll on my partner, where we ended up arguing and screaming at each other and slowly almost drifting apart, all because of an app that I was obsessed with. Now I am making things right. I hardly post on Smule, and if I do I’ll sing a few songs with the people I love singing with and leave it at that. I’ve realized that a competition is only a competition and that there will be more so I don’t worry if I cannot submit. I’m spending more quality time with my family and my husband and getting my life back. Back to the way it used to be, when I had fun and enjoyed myself. I should never have let Smule take over my life like it did. Sometimes I think if I hadn’t maybe I wouldn’t be in the position I am in. Guys Smule is addictive. Its like a drug leaving you on a high making you happy, but I have come to realize that I cannot do it like I used to. I can still be on smule and have my life without going overboard with it. I know I may have realized somewhat late but better late than never. Don’t let it consume you..or your life! You’re better than that! I realized before it was too late. Sometimes I think it was the worst decision to make being on that app. Now here’s time rebuilding my life again. 

Friday, May 5, 2017

Life can be difficult but only if you make it!

When the world starts feeling smaller and smaller and your mind runs away with you just remember that you are not alone. Maybe you feel trapped and afraid, not knowing the outcomes of the rest of your life when events occur that you could foresee but couldn't stop. When you feel unsure about yourself and your life, which in turn makes you upset or depressed. This is what you should do. Do something that makes u happy. Don't just hide away and bottle it up because no matter how easy u might think that is it's not because it will make u feel worse. You have to remember that you ARE special and that you are talented and wanted. You made and keep making a considerable big impact on my life just by being YOU!! You made me realize happiness and joy and laughter. If I had not have met you my life would be boring and disruptive. There wouldn't be side splitting laughter or happy tears. Even though we have only known eachother for 3 months I feel like I have known you my whole life! You are my best friend and I know I've said it to you before but I sincerely love you and nothing will ever change that!! Yes I may be crazy, maybe sometimes boring but I love how I am accepted as who I am. You're the one I turn to if I feel sad or upset or if I am in a dark place and afraid I will do something stupid because I know that you will be there and listen. You have supported me throughout, so now it's time for me to support you even though I would have anyway!! You make me feel like I am a real person and that I am wanted and loved! You make me feel like my life has a purpose and I sincerely Thankyou for that.
You make me smile u make me laugh and u are the most wonderful kindest person that I've met. You are witty, handsome, clever, sarcastic, ridiculously talented with what you do, and I would ever change a thing. I hope this helps you with whatever you are feeling!! I am always there for you no matter what. Day or night just call!! 

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Doubt...

Do u ever think of me,
Do you even care?
Would u even notice me
If I was even there??

Do you really love me?
Show me I cannot tell
When I'm feeling lonely
Or even feeling unwell

Make me feel like I matter
Make me feel like I'm yours
Please don't shut me out
Please don't close your doors

I just know I love u
And I know you do as well
Look at me and say it..
That's the only way to tell..

Friday, February 10, 2017

Butterfingers..

Of all the things I could have done, this may have been the stupidest! I've always been somewhat of a clumsy person, but this I really should have been watching.
I was helping my brother in law and his fiance fix up their new house. Of course there is going to be lots to do. Carpetting, pulling out tacking, nails, you name it. Today however, she wanted to steam the wallpaper off the wall. Seemed like a simple thing to do but what seemed simple turned into a nightmare. The glue wouldnt come off the wall, the wallpaper would just pull the drywall off, to the point where it needed patching and it was causing a lot of unwanted stress. I was busy using e  scraper to scrape the glue residue off the wall. STUPIDLY I brought the scraper down and the blade/scraper part hit my thumb. It stung a bit but thinking nothing of it I carried on. It was only when i saw blood pouring out of my thumb that i had realized i had sliced it open. But you want to know the funniest thing? I honestly wasn't aware that those scrapers were made with razor blades. I thought they were blunt so they didn't cause damage to the walls when used. So I was scraping it up and down the wall like some sort of crazy person lol. 
Have u ever tried to take wood panels out with your thumb wrapped in two layers of paper towels to stop the bleeding, and u cant grip stuff properly? Well that's what I had to do and I felt so stupid for having the accident.  At least it wasn't fatal and my thumb is still intact and I am OK but I ort to be careful next time I use that scraper.  

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Having a Positive outlook on the world and on life makes a difference


How would u feel if you were told that you weren't good enough, or that you would never achieve something? Would u feel worthless and disappointed in yourself? Would it make you feel less of a person if someone that's supposed to care about you cannot support you in the things that you love to do the most? Would it bring down your self-esteem? Depression is a killer. It may make you feel paralyzed and numb, not wanting to do anything or see anyone. You may feel worthless, stupid and conflicted with everything in life.  We always try to do the best we can through life to please other people and make them happy, but sometimes it feels like it is never enough. That WE are never enough. And sometimes it's not about other people that we should be worried about and that's always the hard part. Putting ourselves first and believing in ourselves is sometimes a lot harder for a lot of people to do, especially when they have been put down over and over so many times in the past throughout their livesJust know that you can do whatever you put your mind to. Regardless of how hard it may be, or the struggles that u go through, it IS achievable, and u have to tell yourself that. Believe me, it is hard, but if u have a goal that you want to meet, and surpass, then you have to push forward and persevere. It won't happen if u don't let it!.
People struggle every day to accept themselves. To accept who they are and what they were put on this earth to do. Sometimes it's easier said than done to just turn a blind eye to those that have hate towards you and disrespect you. You try to forget what's been said, but especially for women, it's a very difficult thing to do.
Feeling adequate is better than feeling nothing at all. But feeling good about yourself and beautiful, and special makes your day so much more worth it. You will find that telling yourself that you are beautiful, and that you can do anything or have someone that will say that to you, whether that is a friend, a family member or a loved one brings the moral in people up, so that they feel so much better in themselves, knowing that someone sees them as beautiful, and special and they then, in turn, feel loved.
Having someone in your life that supports you in your life endeavors, and with what you want to do in life gives u that push to strive forward and become that better person and reach that goal that you feel is so far from your grasp that it's not even worth fighting for.
If u have ever felt like the world is caving in on you and that you have no control over your feelings or how you speak or think, well I understand because that was me. That IS me! But I am slowly realizing that life is precious and more important that I first thought. I am so glad to have someone that I love in my life that supports me, loves me so very much and wants to see me do well, and foremost, is PROUD of me. That makes me feel good about myself. Knowing that someone cares and someone loves me in ways that other people choose not to. You take inspiration from the people you love and use it yourself, as steps to move forward.
Be STRONG. You are intelligent, you are kind, you are caring, you are BEAUTIFUL inside AND out..and if other people cannot see that, that is their problem NOT YOURS!! Don't listen to the negative aspects of life because they will just bring you down. Have a positive outlook. Know what you want from the very beginning and strive to make that happen. For e.g for me, I want to start my own skin care business. That means advertising, making the products, and getting people to buy them. I am sure it will be a very slow start, but I am telling myself and hoping that everything will be ok. Although as I said before there is that little voice telling u otherwise, and that can be hard to shake and not listen to.
Have a POSITIVE outlook on life. You can't live in fear every day or worry about what may or may not happen because worrying will take up half of your life, and you will waste time worrying about something that may not even be worth worrying about.  Make it a habit every morning to either listen to someone telling you that u are worthy, and beautiful and special or write positive notions if you are feeling down.
We all make paths for ourselves in life. You are the only one that can make sure that you stay on that path, and get to the goals that you want to achieve. To be free, and independant and to not let anyone stand in your way. This is YOUR life, not theirs. THEY have no say in what you do in your life. Other people are just nasty, because they don't have anything better to do in their lives than to make other peoples lives miserable for entertainment.
Take a minute or two to appreciate yourself for who u are and what u have. Stand in front of a mirror and say outloud I AM STRONG, I AM SMART, I AM KIND, I AM CARING, I AM BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT, I AM SPECIAL, I CAN DO ANYTHING I PUT MY MIND TO, I AM LOVED, I AM TALENTED, I AM ME. No one else can be you. You are unique being that was brought on this earth. Find that part inside you wherever it is that wants to succeed and make it push away the part that wants to fail. 

Be CONFIDENT in everything that you do!!
But first and foremost, You need to learn to love yourself because then others will love you!


Thursday, February 2, 2017

20 reasons why I love you!!

1) You are romantic
2) You show me how much of a beautiful person I am
3) You support me in all of my endeavors
4) You tell me you love me every day
5) You have beautiful eyes that I get lost in every time I look at you
6) You make me feel special
7) You laugh at my jokes
8) You show me you love me every day
9) We have so much in common with each other
10) You make me feel like I am WORTH something
11) You make me feel beautiful every time we talk
12) You are my angel, my love, my baby...
13) You are sexy
14) You are kind
15) You turn me on so much and make me feel sexy
16) You are honest
17) You are sincere
18) You are HANDSOME!!
19) All the anxieties and hurt in the world that I have at that moment go away
when I see you and hear your voice and am able to talk to you
20) You are such an inspiration to me all the time!!