Everyone wants clear skin, but sometimes this is not as easy to achieve as some people think it is. I was never one to have really bad acne, but my brother had it reasonably bad when he was younger and I had a few pimples here and there, but only once where i never wanted anyone to see my face because I felt it was so bad.
I wanted perfect skin. Smooth, no blemishes, no bumps or marks, nothing. I wanted pure floorless matte skin, that i didn't have to do very much with, but maybe put moisturizer on and it would look perfect. But it has take me years and years and still i have still to perfect it...
I used to be very self conscious about my skin, and the way I looked, so I wanted to look perfect because I guess it was when I was at school, all the guys would hit on the really pretty looking blonde chicks, or the big breasted women, and they always had straight teeth, perfect hair, and were known as the popular girls. I, however did not fit into that crowd of people. Yes I may be beautiful now, but back then I was far from it ( I thought ) and I had longed for one of those guys just to come to me, and say to me hey I like u, I think ur pretty, or whatever. But that never happened. I would always be jealous of those other girls, so even now, if my skin is not fantastic, or I put on a little big of weight, I would get depressed because I want to look my best, and I can't when I have pimples all over my face or I can't wear the clothes I want to wear...
How frustrating it is, when people would stare at me, and call me names. I mean if they do now, I am used to it, because I know I am beautiful, and my husband knows it too. He is the one that keeps me strong, and keeps me thinking that anything is possible, and that I can do something..
My parents were never any good at that. Mother kept ridiculing who I would date, or what I would wear and was never really that supportive in anything that I wanted to do. It was always about what they would want...so when I went out buying things for my face, I went out buying everything...
I had cleansers, (3 different types and i would use them all) toners, moisturizers, serums, eye creams, etc..)
I would spend hours just doing my face every morning and night and i would end up it being a regime, in i would sit and make sure that i had used every product on my face to make it clear..
My parents gave me clearasil when i was 15 and it made my skin worse...it broke me out so bad that I didn't want to show my face anywhere and I would cake my face with makeup and foundation...
Now my skin has cleared up so much..and i don't use as many cleansers as I used to, but I still long for pure skin, and i know one day I will get it and will be determined to get it.. I don't know what my life would be without using it. Unless I had clear skin and never needed the products, then I don't think i would be able to live without having something on my face...
Anyway until we meet again...tarraaa....
