you are so special to me.

Before I met you I didn't think I could have a connection with someone like I do with you. You are the most amazing person I have ever had the privilege to meet. Your kind and caring, sexy and beautiful. You make me feel like no other woman in my life has made me feel in a long time. I'm always afraid to show you how I feel or my feelings for u for I am afraid they won't be reciprocated. I am sorry I cry every time the smallest thing upsets me but when you're not in my life I feel that it's so much bigger. You make me happy and that's not an easy thing to do. I care very deeply for u. I didn't think someone would care for me or like me in that way after what other people had done to me. I can't control my emotions and that's nobody's fault. I'm just weak. I don't mean to be jealous or to demand u to Skype because I'll push u away. I only do it because I'm afraid that is being played again and that you only want to be my friend. I don't mean to get upset or to cry over what some people would think was stupid, but to me, you mean so much more than that. I'm sorry I opened up my heart to u, and as I write this I can feel a lump in my throat and the tears start to fall. I can't help it. I do love you and my feelings for u won't change but u are also such a dear friend so close to me. I'm not expecting you to understand but this is me and I want, to be honest with you whenever I can.