Feeling Numb

Words just cannot express my feelings right now. I am overwhelmed by love hatred fear upset and anger and I don't know how to deal with it all as it smothers me all at once and I just can't help but get emotional and break down about it. I don't understand why it happens. I would see myself as a highly sensitive person so the smallest things can end up triggering emotions for me. Depression could be triggered by something so simple such as an argument with a loved one or a friend. It would then make me feel worthless and useless as a wife, friend or daughter, and that maybe I am not doing what is expected of me and that I am not good enough. I hate feeling like that. I have no control over my emotions, and when people tell me that I am overreacting, it sends me into a spiral of other emotions, again which I cannot control and I have lost a lot of people in my life because of the person that I am. I cannot change. This is who I am and who I always will be. I refuse to change for anyone but myself. You should love me for me, flaws and all not love me but hate who I am because of my personality and my high emotional state towards almost everything.