Pride and heartache

Song: 'God bless the USA'. (i would put the youtube video up but for some reason it is not liking me..lol)

I listened to this song for the first time 4 days ago. This song inspired me to realize how wonderful my husband is and what he does for his country. But now when I think about it, I remember hearing this song once before. Before now. I had heard it when I was in a Karaoke bar in VA Beach called Wannabees. I am very sure that some one sang it, reasonably well, and I hadn't got a clue what this song was or the lyrics at the time. But the thing was, I broke into tears when I first heard it, because of the fact that the lyrics relate to being an American, and realizing that they are free. Realizing that I too want to be an American, to live in this wonderful country. But being a British Citizen, I have to go through immigration, which at the time of me coming over here, I was not aware of, as I had no intentions of getting married in the slightest. Sometimes when you love someone, it takes over and you want to be with them for the rest of your life, and marriage proposals are spontaneous. We were in Love! When you are in love, nothing else matters. Only he mattered to me at the time, and when I heart the lyrics 'i'm proud to be an American, where at least I know I'm free' span>made me upset because I was scared that they will take that away from me. They will take my whole family. My life away from me, and send me home. My husband is everything to me. He is my life. I don't know if I'll be able to cope not being with him. When I was supposed to go back, I was already engaged. We got engaged a week before I was supposed to return to the UK. But I couldn't bring myself to go back home and I missed my flight. I was a wreck and it was too much of an emotional ordeal for me to leave him. I couldn't get another flight, and because we were already engaged, we planned to get married, and I lived with him. To be part of his life forever. I wasn't aware of the processes to get into the US as I had never planned to live there, and yet I fall in love, meet a wonderful man who would do anything for me, as I would for him and am still scared of losing him, and being sent home. So even now, when I hear that song, it still makes me cry...yet I am proud to be his wife and I am proud to have him in my life!!! <3