Aaaaarrrgh

This song is now in my head... And I cannot get it out... Arrrgh it's so annoying it's just as bad as narwhals and I dare not tell my husband to play it cos he will and then that song is even worse than they keyboard cat ... Lol

Is marriage just a piece of paper?

I was having a conversation with my sister about life in general and it turned into an argument because she knew I was married and I was telling her that It came with a lot of responsibilities.  I told her I was looking after my husband when he came home from work and her reply to that was looking after him? Why u looking after him, he is a 27-year-old man, not a 5-year-old child. " 

The point that I was trying to get across was that no, I wasn't babysitting him or anything but I would make him dinner or a bath or if he had hurt himself I'd be the nurse and get the first aid kit out and fix him up.  It wasn't that I was treating him like a child it's what any wife would do for their husband if they loved them.  I told her she didn't understand how hard it is being a wife in general and especially being a military wife because we have more on our shoulders than any other wife does. We have to deal with our own lives and our husband's or wives and support them as well and be a strong person when they are gone for weeks to months at a time out to sea.  I told her she wasn't being mature about the situation. Then she carried on to say that marriage was only a piece of paper and that she doesn't have to be married to be mature.  Yes, u don't have to be married to be mature but the fact that she wasn't fully understanding the situation in general and my situation and what it's like for me to wake up every morning and my husband isn't there.  She has her hands full anyway with her daughter and I fully respect and understand that but how dare she tell me how to live my life when she has no clue about marriage and what it really is.  Marriage to me is MORE than just a piece of paper and means more. It's love, commitment, trust, honesty, respect, faithfulness, understanding, and the mutual connection with one another plus many other things.  It's not just a piece of paper. 
She is a 26-year-old woman and for her to say those things doesn't make her mature or trying to understand. She yelled at me to tell me to talk to my parents more.  Sometimes I don't have time because of how busy us military wives can be with deployments and Making sure our significant others are good for work and that they have everything. They live in the UK so the time difference at the time they were 5 hours ahead. So the timing was also an issue as well.  Now they are 8 hours ahead because we had moved due to military orders but I have to plan when I talk to them beforehand.  I started talking on Skype to them every day or tried to just so my sister could get off my back about not being in contact with them because it pissed her off. I did what I could. She has been with her bf for 11 years and she doesn't want to get married and that's fine but she shouldn't tell me how I should live my life when I don't tell her how to live hers.
What are your thoughts on marriage and her opinion on it being just a piece of paper? Do u agree with me? Or with her?

Size matters not!

When I was a young girl I had a dream and an image of what I wanted to look like. I wanted to be slim and pretty. I wanted bigger boobs and a nice small ass. But i knew I didn't have those and would never have those so I became depressed. I was the outcast at school.  I was this short chubby brunette with buck teeth (i hadn't gotten braces yet) acne and was just called ugly and fat. All the boys would chat up the slim, blonde hair slim big breasted blue-eyed girls who were always the popular girls. I knew I never fit into that category. I was always the girl who was pushed down the stairs, thrown into things, people rubbing food in my hair thinking it's funny etc and I was bullied for 8 years until I turned 18.
Not one person ever gave me a chance to show them what kind of person I was and to get to know me.  Instead, they judged me on the way I looked.
When I was younger I wasn't necessarily the prettiest girl in the world but I wanted to feel like it.  I had a small figure when I was 11. I started putting on weight when I was 14/ 15 and even my own mom would tell me I was getting fat. All through my life, I've been ridiculed in some for about my weight. But the older I've got the more I understood that being larger than u want or larger than other people doesn't matter as long as your happy within yourself. Only u can lose the weight but don't feel u have to do it for anyone else but yourself. Your beautiful inside and that's what people should see not judge u from what u look like on the outside. Size doesn't matter. As long as you're healthy and that your weight isn't hindering your health in any way, then don't worry about it.  I have friends that are bigger than me but they are beautiful. They are the most genuine people , and they are beautiful people and who cares what they look like.  I love them for who they are and always will. No matter what size..
Size isn't everything. But you hold that power to change if you wanted to.. To better yourself...
I am now 32 and have fluctuated between a size US size 6  to an 8/10 to a size 11/13. I'm not fat, nor will I class myself as plus size.  If people don't see me for who I am and accept what I look like then they aren't worth having in your life. I am slowly losing weight but doing it for me because I want to be slim to be more healthy not because I want to be slim to be beautiful because I already am beautiful inside and out  :)  and you will realize that you are too. Everyone is beautiful in their own way  :).. Be confident about your body. And show your best assets off and work with what u are given. Whether that's eyes smile breasts or ass. And if u lose weight then that's awesome that your doing it for u but u can Show the world that size does not matter but being happy does.

Perfume

So.. Lately I have been loving perfumes. I am not obsessed as my husband would say,  but more intruiged to want to smell good and I collect samples so I can try each and every fragrance out and see what it smells like on my skin before spending like $100 on a big bottle especially if I don't like it..
The way I see it is that if I have a sample of something I can try many different fragrances, and decide which one I like and which one I'd like to send to family and friends. Then I can send them a big bottle and not blind buy online like I normally would have and end up with the other person hating what I picked.. Because I don't even know what it smells like either... Lol

I love the sweet scents the most.  Anything that smells like food or candy. My mom actually asked me why I wanted to smell like food.. Well mom. It's. Cos I do... OK... :-)
Currently in my perfume collection which I'm building up,  I have Taylor Swift wonderstruck enchanted, prada candy, and then a lot of samples.  Now the samples I have are flowerbomb by viktor and Ralph, I love NY for her, a random justin beiber one cos it smelled Sweet, oh lala (don't remember who by and can't be bothered looking it up lol) and I love NY for mothers. Now that perfume reminds me of my mom and there is also another one that's slightly sweeter that I think she might like as well.  But I got prada candy for Xmas as a gift from my parents and I love it.  It smells so sweet and when I sprayed Pink sugar on top cos I wanted to know what that smelled like it was so yummy.. LOL
Now I know what I'm going to buy for Christmas gifts and I can even send some of the samples and they get to try for free the fragrances I think they would love.. And then later on I can buy them or they can buy the bigger bottle..
Also samples are good if u don't wear perfume a lot and want to put something nice on.  If u know u will only wear it once every so often when u go out,  get samples free and u haven't lost out..

Labels... Are they necessary??

OK this topic has been addressed so many times it's unreal.  Its about labelling people for their sexuality. It's like oh u wear Pink so u must be gay,  or being gay is a choice.. Or being gay means your less of a man than if your straight Or this one I have heard a lot if your bisexual your confused..

Let me firstly say this... Being gay doesn't make any difference to who you are.  People should be able to love whoever they choose regardless of gender.. They should be able to walk freely amongst other people without getting stereotyped or ridiculed because they are with the same sex.  I'll tell u a little story..
When I was 18 I knew there was something special about me.  I wasn't necessarily like other people. I knew I was different.  I had always had an attraction towards women because there's something about them that is different to men.  There's a deeper connection that women have with each other.  I've always known I wasn't straight since I knew I liked both sexes.  But people were always ridiculed for liking the same sex that I never told anyone I was bisexual and passed it off as a phase of growing up.  I thought maybe it will go away the older I get. But that never happened. In fact it got stronger.  I wanted women.  I would fall in love with them.  But I wasn't gay because I was also dating men and had the same sexual and passionate feelings about them as I did for women.  I then knew this wasn't a phase.  This was who I was and what I was born as.  I didn't choose to be bisexual. No matter how hard I try I could deny it but know in the back of my mind and in my heart I would always like women.  So I waited a long time to even tell my best friend that I was Bi because I was afraid.  I was afraid I would lose everything. My friends, and many people thought it was wrong for a woman to be with another woman.  Those that I had told and had accepted me for who I was were the ones that understood. Nothing was going to change me.  If people can't accept and love u for who u are and not judge u for a label then they aren't real people and not real friends.  A label is just a label.  It doesn't define u as a person and it doesn't change u.  Yes I love women and I date women but I am married to the most loving husband who understands and respects me.  I know I am Bisexual and I'm not ashamed of it, I am proud of it. Proud of who I am. And now I am in a place and a country where  I feel more accepted for who I am. I am still the same person as I always was.  Bisexuals aren't confused.  I still know what I want and having a girlfriend doesn't change that..

Being different is beautiful. Being gay is beautiful and being Bi is being me.  Love is love regardless of gender.  People should have the freedom to be happy and not be criticized for something people deem as wrong or a sin. They should be with or marry whom they choose. If they don't like it well fair enough it's their opinion and they should keep it to themselves. No one is asking them to do what u do.  NOTHING should change you. You are your own person and as long as u have people's respect and understanding and love nothing changes. They should love you for who u are too.. And u should also Love who u are and not what people want u to be :) live proud!!

What's wrong with me?

OK so. I meet this girl.  She's cool and down to earth and beautiful.  She has a kid which is also very cool and doesn't bother me and she is seeing this guy who seems to really dig her.  So what happened was was that we met up and we got on really well.  She wanted to hang out again.. We had agreed to hang out today.  We'll she messaged me and said sorry I don't feel well enough to do anything. I said OK that's fine and understood because when your sick your sick but then the guy she has been seeing goes to her house and they hang out and go places.  So she has time for him but she's supposed to be sick and doesn't have time for me? I feel kinda stiffed to be honest. I just wish people could be honest with me and just tell me Hey I just wanna be friends or whatever not hey I really want to see u but I'm sick and can't. Then when I ask what they are doing the reply oh I'm at the mall with so and so.  When they are supposed to be sick why are they at the mall? Can't they tell the person they are with sorry I don't feel well I'm. Staying at home instead I get lied to. I hate people that lie to me.. It makes me feel that I did everything to make them feel wonderful and gave them everything and I get what? A stab in the back..

Friends are the same.. They can't just be your friend they have to judge u for something or other..

Sorry I'm just venting. I just wish people would be honest and also love me for who I am not what they want me to be..