A weakened heart

You say u love me? You say you want to be with me? Yet, you seem too ashamed to tell your boyfriend about me. If he doesn't understand he isn't worth being with. He hurt you once already. We barely talk and when we do, I tell you, I love you and you don't say it back. You ask me to Skype and as soon as I do you hang up. Then text me and say that he is there. So, I'm like ok, every single time. What's wrong with answering and saying hey this is my girlfriend? Are you not proud to be with me? My husband knows about you. I tell him almost everything. He has seen you. He has spoken to you and he doesn't care, because he knows I love him and isn't worried about me being in love with you in the same way too. Why can't you do the same? Just be honest with him. If you really do love me. You would have already told him. But, I don't know how much longer I can keep pretending we're just friends. Do you understand hun? I don't talk to other women or flirt with other people because I am with you. Because I do love you and it does hurt when I get blown off or pushed away with no explanation or apology. Sometimes, I would wait up for hours when you say your going to Skype back and end up falling asleep because it's like 4 a.m. So, I assume you fell asleep and brushed me off. I don't care if he is there. I skype with you when my husband and his friend are there and they both know you're my girlfriend. Maybe hoping isn't worth doing anymore. And now you're not talking to me and I don't know why. I wish you would just tell me what I've done wrong so that I know. And apologize and make it right. But, I don't know what I've done and it's hurting me that you won't even talk to me. And you hang up every time I skype.

And you'd think I would be used to it by now.