arrrrgggh..:S

Right!!! My mom has decided to ram raid my bedroom and clean it, and put things where she wants to put them. That's all fair and well, but it's MY room and it would have been nice if she TOLD me where the fuck she put everything because now I'm looking everywhere for things that I knew the places they were in before!! Why can't they just leave me alone!! 

My Mom moans at me for coming in at half 9 after being in town with a friend and she's like where u been? I mean what does it have to do with her to where I've been!! It just annoys the fuck out of me that she thinks that she can still control my life and I'm nearly 26 years old! Although she can't kick me out because I'd have nowhere to go!

Nothing ever seems to go right with me!! well especially with my parents. They want me to do this bloody teachers training course. I've told them the LEA or student loan ppl won't give me another loan because I've had two already!! And they keep pressurising me to look it up and do it because it's getting later and later and I might miss the September deadline. What I wanted to do was I wanted to get a job and earn some money so that I could do a beauty therapy course. But if I told them that they wouldn't approve! 

They never approve of anything that I want to do!! Even if it's something that would potentially make ME happy! How can I be who I want to be with them trying to stop me?? it's almost like because I'm still under their roof, their rules apply which is why I need to get out! I've had enough of this shit!!..I can't cope with being lectured about what I do and don't do in my life but what can I do? I'm stuck at home with them for the meantime because I have no money, and I have no job! The dole doesn't suffice to live on my own because down here most the flats and houses don't take DSS or housing benefit, so it's really hard to find somewhere that would be suitable! If I HAD the money I would have moved out long ago!!

Now my cam is crashing.FFS!! There's never a day where 1 thing goes right for once..lol but that's life I guess  

I'm hoping to book a holiday soon with one of my friends (that if I have the money) and I CAN get away but I can't feel like myself when I'm at home! 
My sister and my niece are here at the moment so that's cheered me up a little bit I guess coz I don't get to see them that often!!