Happiness and sadness all at once. I hate feeling like this.

I guess I'm supposed to think oh everything is wonderful, but the truth is that I am sad. I am sad because my husband couldn't participate in the fathers day event because he had to work. but more so I am sad because no one acknowledged that he is also a father regardless of whether he or I have a living child or not. It made me feel sad because he has never been spoken of for Father's Day any year. I have never been acknowledged for being a mom either just because I don't have a living child. What, so I need a living child to PROVE that I gave birth to one??? It's ridiculous. I don't feel like I mean anything to anyone. I mean its fathers day for my brother in law because he has two children, and people were saying happy Father's Day to him but never once have they said happy fathers day to my husband. I am the ONLY one that said it to his face. To make him feel wanted and acknowledged that he IS still a father even though our son is in heaven. A comment was put on facebook saying happy Father's Day to everyone else BUT my husband. 
I still enjoyed myself, with all the family, but sometimes just seeing the kids makes me sad inside because I just feel that I'll never be able to give my mom or dad any grandchildren and because we aren't financially stable right now, especially for doctors visits, and hospital stays and it's not possible for us to support a child if we can barely support ourselves. I want to be able to give our child a good childhood. Buy them whatever they want, give them nice clothes and in order to do that, we need to be financially stable. But I will ALWAYS teach them to be grateful for what they have and not to ask for more as some people are less fortunate than them, and to be polite to say please and thank you. I was fortunate to be given lots of things that I wanted when I was little, and my father was always someone that was wise and wanted the best for us. He wanted US to have things that HE was never able to do in life. He was never able to attend university and I was going at the time. He had said to me that I had to work hard which I tried to do, but I had to drop out because I just didn't feel that it was for me. He never really understood that I wanted to be going to do a course I was happy doing, not something that I just HAD to do because I was told to and that at the time my parents were telling me it was something the had wanted me to do, so I was just trying to make them proud but it didn't make me happy. 
My parents don't ever mention my son Jake, nor have they even said happy mothers day to me or happy fathers day to my husband. When will people realize that I am a person with feelings? I am a person that carried a child. I AM his MOTHER no matter what anyone says, and my husband IS his FATHER. It would just be nice one day if we were acknowledged as parents even though he isn't with us, but I doubt that will ever happen. I had to mention something on the comment and only then was it that someone acknowledged , but why does it have to be AFTER you say something about it? why can't they think for themselves to say it without being reminded?