Even though I may sometimes say to myself, Why aren't I like other people? Why aren't I normal? Well..lets start by defining what 'normal' is. Just because everyone aren't exactly alike in every way possible, doesn't mean that they aren't any more normal than the next person. If that is who the person is, then its part of their personality. I am who I am. I dress how I want to dress, and I look however I feel comfortable. If other people want to judge how I do things, hows about I do the same to them and see how they like it. Everyone is an individual. They have their own beliefs, thoughts. What people class is 'normal' is not taking risks, not being stupid or weird at the best of times, and following the rules. What rules? Did u just decide to make some up just then?
I am crazy, I am eccentric, and a little bit mad, but not in a bad way. It's part of my personality. I mean yes there are some people who take sarcasm too far, and end up upsetting people instead of making them laugh because of something they may have said, but I know how to treat people and when to stop. But it keeps me going. I'd rather be happy within myself and just enjoy my life and have fun, rather than be miserable throughout it. Who wants that?
I'd rather people say to me, Hey your weird, whereas I'd reply I know don't u just love it? If not, you need to lighten up a bit. If I feel comfortable being that way, then it is fine for me to be that way. No one else should have the right to tell me otherwise. Its the same with people and friends. You have the right to see whom you wish...
I am not a typical girly girl. I don't often wear pink, or frilly dresses, or have dolls NOR do I dress like a slut! I do whatever feels comfortable for me. Most of the time I would be dressed in 3/4 shorts slip on shoes and a tank top or wife beater top. Or I can have low baggy jeans with chains coming off them, heeleys. hoodie and whatever jewellery I wish. I turn into a little gothic/emo kid. But if thats what I'm interested in and what I wanna look like then thats my choice..But I can look very feminine if and when I want to.
Pics
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
What is the world coming to..
http://www.singlemuslim.com/
Now this made me laugh..Why I hear you say?..Well because I thought that Muslims had arranged marriages..SO what is this site for?..So you can pick the guy you wanna marry, or pick up to 10 guys, and then show them to your parents, who will decide who out of the 10 you will marry?. I mean come on..I thought life was hard as it was if you were a Muslim and having to have your parents choose who you marry. But I mean this site is almost saying...'Pick me..I'm the one you want, and they'd say ask my MOM!..That doesn't make sense. WHY on earth make a site like this in the first place if arranged marriages are what's supposed to happen..?
It is so confusing. I mean what is this site actually for?..lol The answer remains unknown..
Now this made me laugh..Why I hear you say?..Well because I thought that Muslims had arranged marriages..SO what is this site for?..So you can pick the guy you wanna marry, or pick up to 10 guys, and then show them to your parents, who will decide who out of the 10 you will marry?. I mean come on..I thought life was hard as it was if you were a Muslim and having to have your parents choose who you marry. But I mean this site is almost saying...'Pick me..I'm the one you want, and they'd say ask my MOM!..That doesn't make sense. WHY on earth make a site like this in the first place if arranged marriages are what's supposed to happen..?
It is so confusing. I mean what is this site actually for?..lol The answer remains unknown..
Ringtones..
"Ring ga ding ging dang ba donnnng donnng!" I HATE that bloody crazy frog ringtone. Its everywhere. I feel sorry for the people that have that as their ringtone..lol Makes me wanna come and take their phone and smash it. I feel the same way about people and music on their phones. How many times do u get the f*ckwit that decides to sit on the bus or the train and annoy the FUCK out of everyone else by putting their music on like SUPER LOUD on their phone and play it to the entire bus? I HATE ppl like that. They think its funny to sit there and blast their crappy music or their shit ringtones to broadcast to the entire fricking world!!! I say get a life!!..I mean come on! Who's with me here?? Sometimes i just feel like taking the fucking thing, removing the battery and stomping on the piece of shit. Then giving it back and sitting down as if nothing has happened!! lol
And to be honest they will get the shock of their life when or if they shit or fuck with me, because they will have no teeth left and most probably a broken nose!!. AND whats worse is that once being told off they carry on and turn it up louder and louder thinking its funny! There's a little thing called 'headphones' that people carry! maybe they've heard of them! Obviously not because they are so retarded and stupid that even a gnat would be more intelligent than them!
I'm not saying that people can't listen to music, but they should respect people around them, and do what they are told! other people want to get home after a long day at work, or whatever and DO NOT want to have to hear the blasted sound of someone playing music loudly out of their phone! People have the comfort of their own home to do that if they wish to! Maybe in the street its a bit more respectable but still..people nowadays have no respect for other people and its sad because the world has become backwards!
And to be honest they will get the shock of their life when or if they shit or fuck with me, because they will have no teeth left and most probably a broken nose!!. AND whats worse is that once being told off they carry on and turn it up louder and louder thinking its funny! There's a little thing called 'headphones' that people carry! maybe they've heard of them! Obviously not because they are so retarded and stupid that even a gnat would be more intelligent than them!
I'm not saying that people can't listen to music, but they should respect people around them, and do what they are told! other people want to get home after a long day at work, or whatever and DO NOT want to have to hear the blasted sound of someone playing music loudly out of their phone! People have the comfort of their own home to do that if they wish to! Maybe in the street its a bit more respectable but still..people nowadays have no respect for other people and its sad because the world has become backwards!
The comb...
I have always wondered, why black men with long or short Afro style hair have to or feel the need to stick a comb in it? I have never understood this. I mean is it a fashion statement to have this element on show for the world to see, or did they just forget to take it out when they were styling their do?
I mean I would understand if it was used to maybe hold the hair up, but most of their hair is slick back so tight that no hair would even be physically able to fall out, so again whats the comb there for?
We can walk down the street, and ridicule these people but for whatever reason they seem to do this is their own and if we tried to do the same, we'd probably get laughed at for looking so ridiculous. But then saying that some people may think well...IF it makes people look ridiculous, then why would u do it? Why would someone want to go out in public wearing something that looks stupid? Perhaps the same reason that anyone else would go out. If they want to walk around like that then that is their choice and no one should be able to say anything different. It's like saying to a goth why do you wear black? (refer to my post about what does the word 'goth' mean to you)
It's about showing individuality. Being the person you want to be and not being judged by others. Being individual shows how different everyone is. We all have our own views, our own ways of thinking and our own dress sense. So we should all be able to do as we wish..
I mean I would understand if it was used to maybe hold the hair up, but most of their hair is slick back so tight that no hair would even be physically able to fall out, so again whats the comb there for?
We can walk down the street, and ridicule these people but for whatever reason they seem to do this is their own and if we tried to do the same, we'd probably get laughed at for looking so ridiculous. But then saying that some people may think well...IF it makes people look ridiculous, then why would u do it? Why would someone want to go out in public wearing something that looks stupid? Perhaps the same reason that anyone else would go out. If they want to walk around like that then that is their choice and no one should be able to say anything different. It's like saying to a goth why do you wear black? (refer to my post about what does the word 'goth' mean to you)
It's about showing individuality. Being the person you want to be and not being judged by others. Being individual shows how different everyone is. We all have our own views, our own ways of thinking and our own dress sense. So we should all be able to do as we wish..
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Thoughts...
Why is it when you see the light at the end of the tunnel, you are still in darkness? You seek comfort and miss the one person in your life that makes you feel the way you want to. The sadness you feel when you have to say goodbye to the one you love that you may never see again....
Why is it that when you love someone, it doesn't matter what you spend on them, or how much, even if you don't have that much money?. Just being as one with that person, should make you happy. You must be a strong person if you can live your life not being able to see the one that you love. Or even those that you care about...
Have you ever felt like you can just sit and laugh and talk with the person you love..tell them everything, and they just sit there and listen, and help u out. Have you ever fallen in love with that person because they made you feel worthwhile and made you feel like you meant something to them? To not have your heart ripped to pieces every time you want to talk to them, because you miss them so much and because you really want to see them that badly. To be made out to be special and to feel special..
Why does life have to be so hard?....
Why is it that when you love someone, it doesn't matter what you spend on them, or how much, even if you don't have that much money?. Just being as one with that person, should make you happy. You must be a strong person if you can live your life not being able to see the one that you love. Or even those that you care about...
Have you ever felt like you can just sit and laugh and talk with the person you love..tell them everything, and they just sit there and listen, and help u out. Have you ever fallen in love with that person because they made you feel worthwhile and made you feel like you meant something to them? To not have your heart ripped to pieces every time you want to talk to them, because you miss them so much and because you really want to see them that badly. To be made out to be special and to feel special..
Why does life have to be so hard?....
Bullies...and how they think!
Ever been to school, and had some girl or guy call you names, or throw stuff at your head and think it's funny? People like this are mainly those that have never been brought up with manners. They think its funny to make fun of someone that is less fortunate than them. Whether it be for ethnic origin, color, height, looks, accent, mannerisms, sexual orientation etc..I mean the list goes on.
I don't see how people can live with themselves ridiculing other people just because they want to get a laugh out of it. Some may just be pushed into bushes, or tied to trees naked, or have lunch money stolen from them, or even have food rubbed into their hair, or called certain names and ridiculed for things that they do. These people don't think about the consequences that fall upon them or the other person's feelings. They may just be with the wrong crowd and learned the wrong way, but it never makes it right. I don't see how someone can get a kick out of upsetting someone else...This is why I would never hurt anyone's feelings. At least not on purpose or deliberately.
I got bullied when I was 11 years old. I got food thrown at me, I was pushed down the stairs, kicked, thumped, banana skins rubbed in my hair, and all they did was laugh and walk off. At this point because I didn't retaliate, they thought they had won. That they could do anything and I would just stand there and take it, but what else could I do? They may be 13 years old, or 17 years old but they have the mindset of 5. They are still children, messing around, not taking into consideration anyone's feelings apart from their own. Those people tended to be the ones that turned out to be two-faced. One min they are bullying me and then 8 years later they want to be my friend and add me on facebook. Somehow suspicious, but me thinking they had grown up after school must have been a miss conception. Why people think that they can say horrible things to other people, especially MY friends is beyond me. And then THEY go after me for it because I'm trying to support and back up my friends that these bullies are tormenting. Why put all your time and effort into trolling and making other peoples lives hell? And for what? A quick laugh? Because u won't be thinking that as soon as one of the people that you bully ends up taking his or her life because of YOU!
Life is full of risks. If you don't take one, you'll never know what lies ahead. Sometimes it's worth taking a risk, knowing it will make you happy in the long run. Be prepared for everything life throws at you. It can be tough at times, but know there are people out there that will listen, that DO care and that want to help and won't leave you. You have to believe and take the risk that those people won't leave u or hurt you. Sometimes life doesn't work out the way we had planned it to, but then there would be no surprises, and it would be so boring. Love Life and love yourself!
I don't see how people can live with themselves ridiculing other people just because they want to get a laugh out of it. Some may just be pushed into bushes, or tied to trees naked, or have lunch money stolen from them, or even have food rubbed into their hair, or called certain names and ridiculed for things that they do. These people don't think about the consequences that fall upon them or the other person's feelings. They may just be with the wrong crowd and learned the wrong way, but it never makes it right. I don't see how someone can get a kick out of upsetting someone else...This is why I would never hurt anyone's feelings. At least not on purpose or deliberately.
I got bullied when I was 11 years old. I got food thrown at me, I was pushed down the stairs, kicked, thumped, banana skins rubbed in my hair, and all they did was laugh and walk off. At this point because I didn't retaliate, they thought they had won. That they could do anything and I would just stand there and take it, but what else could I do? They may be 13 years old, or 17 years old but they have the mindset of 5. They are still children, messing around, not taking into consideration anyone's feelings apart from their own. Those people tended to be the ones that turned out to be two-faced. One min they are bullying me and then 8 years later they want to be my friend and add me on facebook. Somehow suspicious, but me thinking they had grown up after school must have been a miss conception. Why people think that they can say horrible things to other people, especially MY friends is beyond me. And then THEY go after me for it because I'm trying to support and back up my friends that these bullies are tormenting. Why put all your time and effort into trolling and making other peoples lives hell? And for what? A quick laugh? Because u won't be thinking that as soon as one of the people that you bully ends up taking his or her life because of YOU!
Life is full of risks. If you don't take one, you'll never know what lies ahead. Sometimes it's worth taking a risk, knowing it will make you happy in the long run. Be prepared for everything life throws at you. It can be tough at times, but know there are people out there that will listen, that DO care and that want to help and won't leave you. You have to believe and take the risk that those people won't leave u or hurt you. Sometimes life doesn't work out the way we had planned it to, but then there would be no surprises, and it would be so boring. Love Life and love yourself!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Today fun (what of it)
So I woke up at 10am after going to bed shortly after 6am this morning. I decided that I wanted some more sleep but I just couldn't get myself comfortable and I felt restless, so I gave up. I thought well If i am already awake now, might as well stay up and start doing things. So I decided to go on Youtube.com and play some karaoke tracks. I know how my voice is in the morning or whenever I decide to wake up, so it wasn't that pretty to say the least. It was crackly and I couldn't sing any of the high notes, so I took a throat sweet which seems to have helped the situation, and I am gallivanting through youtube finding different karaoke tracks that I can cover. I have found one or two but they usually either need another person, OR they have some rap part in, that never will I attempt even in my lifetime..lol because I sound like a retard.
I still feel really ill. I managed to have at least something to eat yesterday, but it wasn't enough as today my stomach feels like its in knots and because I am so tired, it is not helping the situation. I want to go back to sleep because I feel like shit.
I'm supposed to be going to a friends today, but the way I'm feeling right now, I don't know if I'll be going anywhere until late or at least until later on today. They were saying 2pm ish. Well its nearly half 1 already, and there is no way that I'm going to be ready because I'm still in bed..in pain. I have my cell on silent just in-case I fall asleep and they decide to text because I really don't want to be disturbed. I feel like I want to sleep it off as much as I can before I go to a BBQ tomorrow. I want to be the best for that, so I want to feel refreshed and everything. I want to feel like I can communicate with the other people instead of be like 'ugh' and all anti social because I'm so tired. I am supposed to be staying over their place tonight, but i mean even if they picked me up later on like 8pm or even 10pm, so that I could just rest, that would be fine!
We shall see what happens...
I still feel really ill. I managed to have at least something to eat yesterday, but it wasn't enough as today my stomach feels like its in knots and because I am so tired, it is not helping the situation. I want to go back to sleep because I feel like shit.
I'm supposed to be going to a friends today, but the way I'm feeling right now, I don't know if I'll be going anywhere until late or at least until later on today. They were saying 2pm ish. Well its nearly half 1 already, and there is no way that I'm going to be ready because I'm still in bed..in pain. I have my cell on silent just in-case I fall asleep and they decide to text because I really don't want to be disturbed. I feel like I want to sleep it off as much as I can before I go to a BBQ tomorrow. I want to be the best for that, so I want to feel refreshed and everything. I want to feel like I can communicate with the other people instead of be like 'ugh' and all anti social because I'm so tired. I am supposed to be staying over their place tonight, but i mean even if they picked me up later on like 8pm or even 10pm, so that I could just rest, that would be fine!
We shall see what happens...
What does the word 'goth' mean to you?
I wrote this on a different blog ages ago, but I thought i'd share it with you anyhow. Again it is my view..
This is my own personal opinion..if you don't like it then tough as people are entitled to their own opinion!
This is my own personal opinion..if you don't like it then tough as people are entitled to their own opinion!
To be honest, 'Goth' or 'Gothic' in my opinion, is just a word or label that people of social outcast feel they want to place themselves under. Everyone is different. Just because someone wants to laze around in jogging bottoms and listen to night-wish, then does that make them a goth? It's almost a trend that people feel they have to follow....BECAUSE IT'S THERE!!!
No one is able to do what they want, or be who they want to be because of this. So because there are so many different trends out there, and u wear what you like, or listen to whatever
'Goth' Doesn't necessarily mean you HAVE to wear dark clothing and black nail polish and EMO doesn't mean you 'HAVE' to be called an emotional self harmer who thinks nothing of themselves and has accepted this role in society and what society has done to US as people! We should be free to express how we want to express ourselves, whether it be doing certain things or wearing certain things or even the type of music that we listen to. We shouldn't be made to pass judgment on others!
And why is it that 'goths' are always perceived to be nasty vindictive people that everyone seems to be scared of? I have a lot of goth friends and they are the nicest people you could ever meet! Clothing or trend has nothing to do with the
Something to think about in my opinion
1)
How can u live your life everyday
knowing your unhappy?
2)
how can u wake up every morning
knowing that u get hurt all the time?
3)
how can u let someone control you
knowing you will never be able to see your friends?
4)
how can u live with yourself
believing everyone's lies?
5)
How can u trust anyone
knowing what happened in the past?
6)
How can you go to work
knowing your children could be in danger?
7)
How do you cope
falling in love with someone else, and them loving you back but u can't be together?
These are all questions that alot of us ask ourselves but cannot seem to come up with a valid answer. Life is hard and we deal with it as it comes. You cannot really prepare for what lies ahead. If it happens it happens. But you could prevent them from happening. Sometimes you have to take risks. You have to have enough trust in yourself that whatever you do will work out one way or another. You have to believe that you are strong enough to get through whatever is thrown at you, no matter how hard. Sometimes taking away the main cause of the problem, can change the situation, but sometimes not for the better but for the worse. Sometimes we are scared to take the risk, knowing that we may lose everything, and a lot of the time we just plough through life as if nothing is wrong, when we know deep inside that we are falling apart, but I believe that if you really want something you go for it. There is a consequence for everything in life, and for everything that we do but I can't see the point in trying to live my life and not be happy. It's like your living a lie, whether its doing a job you don't like, just because you have been told that u have to stick with it by parents who think that this is the best thing for you because it gives money (and yes money is good but it doesn't buy you happiness), or whether its living with someone that you used to get on with or love, but there's nothing there anymore, yet there are now other people involved that will bear the consequences if you left or changed the situation and yes life can be complicated. No one ever said it was going to be easy..
We never want to hurt anyone, because it's not in our nature to, BUT in the other sense, we should be putting OURSELVES first for a change and thinking about what WE want, how WE feel, and what makes US happy, not what the other person wants all the time. We can have a job that we hate..and believe me I've had my fair share, and I know at the end of the day a job is a job and it's money!. BUT saying that...I do feel that you should work somewhere where you are going to WANT to wake up early every morning, and WANT to go to work because you enjoy it, rather than having to Force yourself to get up to earn the same amount of money. And everyone knows that there aren't many places that people WANT to work at that they can. I'd rather see a real smile from someone if I was a manager or a colleague working in a company, than to see someone that's putting on a brave face because they don't really want to be there, and end up getting fired a week later because they are not putting the effort in. Wouldn't u rather work somewhere where u KNOW you are going to work 100% anyway, regardless of the money...because you enjoy being there, and you enjoy what you do?..I would!!
How can u live your life everyday
knowing your unhappy?
2)
how can u wake up every morning
knowing that u get hurt all the time?
3)
how can u let someone control you
knowing you will never be able to see your friends?
4)
how can u live with yourself
believing everyone's lies?
5)
How can u trust anyone
knowing what happened in the past?
6)
How can you go to work
knowing your children could be in danger?
7)
How do you cope
falling in love with someone else, and them loving you back but u can't be together?
These are all questions that alot of us ask ourselves but cannot seem to come up with a valid answer. Life is hard and we deal with it as it comes. You cannot really prepare for what lies ahead. If it happens it happens. But you could prevent them from happening. Sometimes you have to take risks. You have to have enough trust in yourself that whatever you do will work out one way or another. You have to believe that you are strong enough to get through whatever is thrown at you, no matter how hard. Sometimes taking away the main cause of the problem, can change the situation, but sometimes not for the better but for the worse. Sometimes we are scared to take the risk, knowing that we may lose everything, and a lot of the time we just plough through life as if nothing is wrong, when we know deep inside that we are falling apart, but I believe that if you really want something you go for it. There is a consequence for everything in life, and for everything that we do but I can't see the point in trying to live my life and not be happy. It's like your living a lie, whether its doing a job you don't like, just because you have been told that u have to stick with it by parents who think that this is the best thing for you because it gives money (and yes money is good but it doesn't buy you happiness), or whether its living with someone that you used to get on with or love, but there's nothing there anymore, yet there are now other people involved that will bear the consequences if you left or changed the situation and yes life can be complicated. No one ever said it was going to be easy..
We never want to hurt anyone, because it's not in our nature to, BUT in the other sense, we should be putting OURSELVES first for a change and thinking about what WE want, how WE feel, and what makes US happy, not what the other person wants all the time. We can have a job that we hate..and believe me I've had my fair share, and I know at the end of the day a job is a job and it's money!. BUT saying that...I do feel that you should work somewhere where you are going to WANT to wake up early every morning, and WANT to go to work because you enjoy it, rather than having to Force yourself to get up to earn the same amount of money. And everyone knows that there aren't many places that people WANT to work at that they can. I'd rather see a real smile from someone if I was a manager or a colleague working in a company, than to see someone that's putting on a brave face because they don't really want to be there, and end up getting fired a week later because they are not putting the effort in. Wouldn't u rather work somewhere where u KNOW you are going to work 100% anyway, regardless of the money...because you enjoy being there, and you enjoy what you do?..I would!!
Making new friends
Well after moving over here and not knowing many people whatsoever, apart from the people that were or are on the Ship that my husband was on, I can now say that I have met some new and wonderful people. And can I say that they are awesome. I won't mention any names, but I'm sure if they read this, they would realize who they are. All of my friends I left behind back in the UK, so it was really hard for me at the beginning, to try and make a life for myself over here and make friends, not knowing anybody. Even when I got to know my husbands shipmates, it still made it hard seeing the majority of them, as being in the Navy, they always have to go underway or they have to go on deployment, or they were working late, so I don't really technically get to see them that often. But the people that I have made friends with, I keep close to my heart. They are some of the best people and I will be there for them, as much as they will for me. And also meeting people that have the same sarcastic humor as I do. It makes it so much easier for me just to be me, and to not pretend that I am something or someone else, which I'd never do anyway, because the way I see it is that If someone can't accept you for the way you or for who u are, then that persons friendship isn't worth the hassle or the heartache. There is no point trying to live your life with people that don't matter. It's the ones that do that are important.
Before I came to the States, there was always a perception about what American people were actually like. Now all we had ever seen was on the news where they would show Americans as obese, overweight people walking down the streets eating fast food. That they were obnoxious and rude and only cared about themselves, and their country. This is all we have ever known or seen. This is all that was ever taught to us from the media. That Americans are made out to be this way. So If someone asked me what I thought of Americans, I'd honestly tell them, that that is all I have ever known, so I couldn't say any different. But coming here to the states, and actually MEETING and SEEING real people, real Americans..I know that it is not like that at all, and that the media always hype up everything to make it sound worse than it actually is. I mean yeah I'm sure that there are overweight people around, and yes I'm sure that there are people that do not look after their health and end up the way that the media proclaims Americans to be but it was the way that they were thrown about as if that was all Americans were. Almost like no one had researched or actually ever spoken to one, to really find out what its all about. And I don't think that it's fair that people should be seen in that way.
Before I came to the States, there was always a perception about what American people were actually like. Now all we had ever seen was on the news where they would show Americans as obese, overweight people walking down the streets eating fast food. That they were obnoxious and rude and only cared about themselves, and their country. This is all we have ever known or seen. This is all that was ever taught to us from the media. That Americans are made out to be this way. So If someone asked me what I thought of Americans, I'd honestly tell them, that that is all I have ever known, so I couldn't say any different. But coming here to the states, and actually MEETING and SEEING real people, real Americans..I know that it is not like that at all, and that the media always hype up everything to make it sound worse than it actually is. I mean yeah I'm sure that there are overweight people around, and yes I'm sure that there are people that do not look after their health and end up the way that the media proclaims Americans to be but it was the way that they were thrown about as if that was all Americans were. Almost like no one had researched or actually ever spoken to one, to really find out what its all about. And I don't think that it's fair that people should be seen in that way.
what's going on with me
Well lets try this again. I wrote a blog yesterday and it didn't sent or post so I was very pissed off to say the least. I haven't been online for a while so I haven't been able to write a new blog so here is an update of whats new with me..
Husband has graduated from 'IT' A school 'yay' but he still hasn't come back yet. Has been in Pensacola, FL for nearly 4 months and I'm in Norfolk, Va right now. He was waiting on orders and I didn't know whats going but he is now coming back in the next few weeks but I'm still stuck at home and everything is still all up in the air..
I am cat sitting right now for a girl who was on the same ship as my husband. She has gone to school too but the cat is causing havoc and there is only so much that I can do. He likes to scratch up the carpet. Now I have put the scratch pad near where he always does it, yet he doesn't ever use it, and I keep getting grilled at from Chris saying oh so now we're gonna have to pay for a new carpet, as if its my fault that the cat is clawing up the carpet. I have done everything I can to stop the cat from doing it, and most of the time he only does it when I'm out, so i'm not going to say to chris i'm never gonna go out for 4 months just so the cat won't claw the carpet coz i'll go insane. I've had to try to go out as often as I can with my friends so I don't feel cooped up and depressed...
Husband has graduated from 'IT' A school 'yay' but he still hasn't come back yet. Has been in Pensacola, FL for nearly 4 months and I'm in Norfolk, Va right now. He was waiting on orders and I didn't know whats going but he is now coming back in the next few weeks but I'm still stuck at home and everything is still all up in the air..
I am cat sitting right now for a girl who was on the same ship as my husband. She has gone to school too but the cat is causing havoc and there is only so much that I can do. He likes to scratch up the carpet. Now I have put the scratch pad near where he always does it, yet he doesn't ever use it, and I keep getting grilled at from Chris saying oh so now we're gonna have to pay for a new carpet, as if its my fault that the cat is clawing up the carpet. I have done everything I can to stop the cat from doing it, and most of the time he only does it when I'm out, so i'm not going to say to chris i'm never gonna go out for 4 months just so the cat won't claw the carpet coz i'll go insane. I've had to try to go out as often as I can with my friends so I don't feel cooped up and depressed...
Its so stressful. I've still gotta sort my permanent residency stuff out, and my apartment is a complete mess..
Money is another issue..I keep saying to husband that i can't always ask my parents because they are giving me like $700 every month and they are supposed to have retired..and because he can't give me any money having to pay for everything over there I have to, but it seems very one sided. But when I say to him i can't keep asking them for money and he says yeah i know i understand, i don't really think he does Really UNDERSTAND..and it gets frustrating because its like he blocks out the things he doesn't want to hear and lets through the things he does. So nothing ever gets done! And it always ends up in an argument and I don't wanna HAVE to shout at my husband but sometimes it just has to be done even if I do love him he does piss me the fuck off sometimes...And because I don't drive or
Also I've had people threatening me telling me who I can and can't talk to. I mean some people really have to grow up because I am sick of the Drama...They can't tell me what to do, and neither can they tell their friends or their husbands or bf's who they can and can't talk to. I think its pathetic!!
And also people on Facebook that think they can delete me and not give me a reason so I'm stuck there thinking wtf is going on and what did i do? Ahh well shit happens...
I got my lip pierced about 6 weeks ago. It's still healing but I may need to change the hoops too smaller 14 gauge hoops as the ones I have in are still 14's but they are huge..and again it costs money. So I may need to wait a while for that. I hope it looks cute in the end and at some point I do want my tongue pierced but that may be a long while yet because or money and I wanna make sure that my lip is fully healed before hand.
Anyway that's enough for now...I'll add more at a later date. Just a quick update as to whats going on with me
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What is life? Is it what we live now? or is it what we remember?. A past memory perhaps? The distant future? All of these are incorporated into what is known as 'Life'. Life is how we know it. It is evolution, it is men, animals, all living creatures and everything else and beyond. And it's how only we can interpret our own. No one else can tell us how we should live our lives because every person's life is different. We should live for ourselves, and not for others. Life is both past, present and future. It is a reminder of what was, now and what's to come.
The way people act in the way they live is up to them. But you only get one shot at life. So it's best to try and make the most of it whilst you can because there is never a second chance. Don't take life for granted. Cherish every second that you have, and be thankful that you have this chance. For those who think that they are better off not alive, or not around because no one wants them or they feel that they would be better off, then think about it this way. Your parents wouldn't have given birth to you if they didn't want you. Even if they gave you away to another loving family because they may have been too young to look after you at the time, it doesn't mean that they didn't want you or love you.
Everyone has faults. Everyone makes mistakes. We live and learn by these mistakes and press on. We should be encouraged to do the best that we can in life. To study hard with the best of our ability's, to successfully have a job and work hard within whichever company you may work for. To love every moment, and understand that there are other people less fortunate than you, so you should be grateful for what you do have, and not complain about the things that you don't.
Life isn't just something that happens, it's also something that has to be understood, and that things may not happen in the way that people want them to. That's just the way life is, and believe me if life were easy, where would be the challenge??
Some people say what is there to live for? Well...there are a lot of things. Living for happiness I feel is one big thing in life. Everyone will have at least something in their life that makes them happy. That is worth living for. Having friends that love and care for you...THAT is worth living for. Being everything that you can be. THAT is worth living for. As I say, No one else knows how to live your life but YOU!. Take control, be that person you have always dreamed of being, no matter how hard you think it will be, or how long it will take. Yes, it could take years, but if you persevere, and If you set yourself a goal and you live up to that goal and work towards what makes you happy, then you will find that will all be worth the work and the wait at the end.
Life isn't always what it's cracked up to be, but still, every day should be looked upon as if it's your last. Because you never know what's around the corner.
The way people act in the way they live is up to them. But you only get one shot at life. So it's best to try and make the most of it whilst you can because there is never a second chance. Don't take life for granted. Cherish every second that you have, and be thankful that you have this chance. For those who think that they are better off not alive, or not around because no one wants them or they feel that they would be better off, then think about it this way. Your parents wouldn't have given birth to you if they didn't want you. Even if they gave you away to another loving family because they may have been too young to look after you at the time, it doesn't mean that they didn't want you or love you.
Everyone has faults. Everyone makes mistakes. We live and learn by these mistakes and press on. We should be encouraged to do the best that we can in life. To study hard with the best of our ability's, to successfully have a job and work hard within whichever company you may work for. To love every moment, and understand that there are other people less fortunate than you, so you should be grateful for what you do have, and not complain about the things that you don't.
Life isn't just something that happens, it's also something that has to be understood, and that things may not happen in the way that people want them to. That's just the way life is, and believe me if life were easy, where would be the challenge??
Some people say what is there to live for? Well...there are a lot of things. Living for happiness I feel is one big thing in life. Everyone will have at least something in their life that makes them happy. That is worth living for. Having friends that love and care for you...THAT is worth living for. Being everything that you can be. THAT is worth living for. As I say, No one else knows how to live your life but YOU!. Take control, be that person you have always dreamed of being, no matter how hard you think it will be, or how long it will take. Yes, it could take years, but if you persevere, and If you set yourself a goal and you live up to that goal and work towards what makes you happy, then you will find that will all be worth the work and the wait at the end.
Life isn't always what it's cracked up to be, but still, every day should be looked upon as if it's your last. Because you never know what's around the corner.
Weird and wonderful filipino dishes that I may or may NOT eat!
OK..now SOME of this stuff i DO eat, but then some i can't even make myself eat. Like (Balut)duck eggs with unformed dead fetus's in them. That i can't even force myself to eat, even if my mum gives me one to try, id still pass! AND my mum has some in her fridge at the moment. When i came downstairs one day and my mum had her cousin over from the Philippines, i opened the fridge and saw them sitting where the normal eggs go. I said to myself,
"Are those what i think they are? If so I'm not going ANYWHERE near them"..lol
I had casava wrapped in a banana leaf which was really nice! And I will eat Philippine dishes such as Dinuguan (pork cooked in vinegar with black pudding) and Sinigang ( Pork boiled in lemon and tamarind with cabbage, served with rice and the soup is really sour. Its good for sore throats i tell ya!! ) and Chicken Adobo which is one of my fave ( Chicken boiled in vinegar with garlic and soy sauce) They like boiling stuff in vinegar i hear u say..lol well yeah seems that way!!
The last time I went to the Philippines was when i was 18. We used to go every 4 years. The first time I went was when i was 4 i think. Horrible 18 hour flight or something stupid, and I hate planes anyway because i get air sick! . Anyway...even when we had gone to bed, and it was like midnight, id come down to use the bathroom and my mum and relatives would still be eating round the table..And the amount of food!! OMG its like they are cooking to feed the 5000, only the 5000 is just the 4-5 of them!!
My mum still does it now. We would maybe have a few of her friends over, and the day before she would have cooked and prepared at least 6 different dishes...PLUS dessert! So we'd have spring rolls( both vegetarian and meat), longanisa (these red Philippine sausages and they are sooo good) some weird dish made with peanut sauce, rice noodles, sweet potato in some weird fish concoction, okoy ( i cant spell but its like a fried pancake usually with shrimp and beansprouts and u eat it with a vinegar and garlic sauce dip)another fish dish, dinuguan and then the desserts...usually stuff like egg custard with caramel(leche flan) sticky rice with like a caramel topping (calami) I mean how many people does she think are coming..400?..lol...And then the funny part is that whatever isn't eaten goes in the fridge and she will eat the next day for breakfast or lunch or whenever she feels hungry. She is a feeder!! Like I'm a hoard (and no not whore..Hoard) which means i collect things i don't really need to collect. I will pick up leaflets or catalogs and they will just end up in a pile in my room or in the bin and I'll never use them. Usually i get them because its got a coupon or a deal in it, and most of the time i can't afford whatever the deal is..lol.
<i>The Ube (Yam) ice cream is nice, but cheese ice cream? I mean come on..lol And they put it in a hamburger bun! That's unusual..for maybe an American, or anyone else who isn't Filipino ( i mean its still strange to me and im half Filipino..lol )
Anyway i thought this would interest you, and also tell you a little bit about me as well..and the food that I eat..yes i am weird. I will try anything in principal, unless it really freaks me out like that duck egg thing or anything that is still moving. If someone says how would u like Ur chicken or how would i like my steak..I'd reply preferably DEAD!! not clucking or mooing..
OMG that reminded me...i only just found out that theres a place in Windsor that u can get steak that is rarer than rare..As in its still mooing!! Freshly killed still more than likely with the blood pouring from it!! I swear if that was put in front of me that prob would be enough to turn me vegetarian!..LMAO!! I mean i love my meat (and guys don't get the wrong idea about that..minds OUT THE GUTTER PLEASE)..lol but i don't think id stoop as low as eating a cow that had just been freshly killed and not even cooked properly. That would just unnerve me i think..although it wont stop me eating beef!!
Anyway sorry i went off on a tangent at the end there...lol - have a read and let me know what u think
"Are those what i think they are? If so I'm not going ANYWHERE near them"..lol
I had casava wrapped in a banana leaf which was really nice! And I will eat Philippine dishes such as Dinuguan (pork cooked in vinegar with black pudding) and Sinigang ( Pork boiled in lemon and tamarind with cabbage, served with rice and the soup is really sour. Its good for sore throats i tell ya!! ) and Chicken Adobo which is one of my fave ( Chicken boiled in vinegar with garlic and soy sauce) They like boiling stuff in vinegar i hear u say..lol well yeah seems that way!!
The last time I went to the Philippines was when i was 18. We used to go every 4 years. The first time I went was when i was 4 i think. Horrible 18 hour flight or something stupid, and I hate planes anyway because i get air sick! . Anyway...even when we had gone to bed, and it was like midnight, id come down to use the bathroom and my mum and relatives would still be eating round the table..And the amount of food!! OMG its like they are cooking to feed the 5000, only the 5000 is just the 4-5 of them!!
My mum still does it now. We would maybe have a few of her friends over, and the day before she would have cooked and prepared at least 6 different dishes...PLUS dessert! So we'd have spring rolls( both vegetarian and meat), longanisa (these red Philippine sausages and they are sooo good) some weird dish made with peanut sauce, rice noodles, sweet potato in some weird fish concoction, okoy ( i cant spell but its like a fried pancake usually with shrimp and beansprouts and u eat it with a vinegar and garlic sauce dip)another fish dish, dinuguan and then the desserts...usually stuff like egg custard with caramel(leche flan) sticky rice with like a caramel topping (calami) I mean how many people does she think are coming..400?..lol...And then the funny part is that whatever isn't eaten goes in the fridge and she will eat the next day for breakfast or lunch or whenever she feels hungry. She is a feeder!! Like I'm a hoard (and no not whore..Hoard) which means i collect things i don't really need to collect. I will pick up leaflets or catalogs and they will just end up in a pile in my room or in the bin and I'll never use them. Usually i get them because its got a coupon or a deal in it, and most of the time i can't afford whatever the deal is..lol.
<i>The Ube (Yam) ice cream is nice, but cheese ice cream? I mean come on..lol And they put it in a hamburger bun! That's unusual..for maybe an American, or anyone else who isn't Filipino ( i mean its still strange to me and im half Filipino..lol )
Anyway i thought this would interest you, and also tell you a little bit about me as well..and the food that I eat..yes i am weird. I will try anything in principal, unless it really freaks me out like that duck egg thing or anything that is still moving. If someone says how would u like Ur chicken or how would i like my steak..I'd reply preferably DEAD!! not clucking or mooing..
OMG that reminded me...i only just found out that theres a place in Windsor that u can get steak that is rarer than rare..As in its still mooing!! Freshly killed still more than likely with the blood pouring from it!! I swear if that was put in front of me that prob would be enough to turn me vegetarian!..LMAO!! I mean i love my meat (and guys don't get the wrong idea about that..minds OUT THE GUTTER PLEASE)..lol but i don't think id stoop as low as eating a cow that had just been freshly killed and not even cooked properly. That would just unnerve me i think..although it wont stop me eating beef!!
Anyway sorry i went off on a tangent at the end there...lol - have a read and let me know what u think
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