My response to a video that saddened me a bit..

This I feel needs to be addressed. These are my opinions and I know everyone has a right to their opinion but this is how I feel about the subject in hand. 

So what happened was I was watching a YouTube video on a response on a little boy who asked his father what Down syndrome was. His father said to him it's an illness. Now my response to that video was no its not an illness and it did make me feel a bit saddened that that person would say something like that. If my son had Down syndrome or wanted to know what it was I would say to my son that Down syndrome is something that some people are born with but it is something that makes that person special. It's a part of you. It makes you who you are. Just because u feel different from everyone else doesn't mean that you are. You are intelligent you are handsome and you are loved and that's all that matters. People need to understand that disabilities doesn't change a person from who they are. Yes they may need extra help with certain things or they may talk slower or find things a little nor difficult to do, but they are just like you and me. They are people and they have feelings and emotions and think just like we do and for this father to tell his son that Down syndrome is an illness was maybe not the right way to have gone about it. He probably wasn't trying to be rude about it  but sometimes u just have to be more tactical at how you approach certain subjects. Down syndrome children are beautiful funny and smart kids that can do whatever they put their mind to, just like you and me. We are all the same no matter race, sexual orientation, or disability. But I don't see Down syndrome as a disability. If I had a kid with Down syndrome I wouldn't see it as an illness enough to abort,  I see it as a gift given from God to make that child unique and special And a gift because God gave you to me. If I ever had a Down syndrome child I would never abort them.  Most hospitals will ask that question.. Yes they may be a little more work to look after but it's still a child. Unless it's in the best interest of the child would I give them up, never for the best interest of ME!. That child was created so you work with it and that child will be loved the same as any other child without any issues or illnesses. 

arrrrgggh..:S

Right!!! My mom has decided to ram raid my bedroom and clean it, and put things where she wants to put them. That's all fair and well, but it's MY room and it would have been nice if she TOLD me where the fuck she put everything because now I'm looking everywhere for things that I knew the places they were in before!! Why can't they just leave me alone!! 

My Mom moans at me for coming in at half 9 after being in town with a friend and she's like where u been? I mean what does it have to do with her to where I've been!! It just annoys the fuck out of me that she thinks that she can still control my life and I'm nearly 26 years old! Although she can't kick me out because I'd have nowhere to go!

Nothing ever seems to go right with me!! well especially with my parents. They want me to do this bloody teachers training course. I've told them the LEA or student loan ppl won't give me another loan because I've had two already!! And they keep pressurising me to look it up and do it because it's getting later and later and I might miss the September deadline. What I wanted to do was I wanted to get a job and earn some money so that I could do a beauty therapy course. But if I told them that they wouldn't approve! 

They never approve of anything that I want to do!! Even if it's something that would potentially make ME happy! How can I be who I want to be with them trying to stop me?? it's almost like because I'm still under their roof, their rules apply which is why I need to get out! I've had enough of this shit!!..I can't cope with being lectured about what I do and don't do in my life but what can I do? I'm stuck at home with them for the meantime because I have no money, and I have no job! The dole doesn't suffice to live on my own because down here most the flats and houses don't take DSS or housing benefit, so it's really hard to find somewhere that would be suitable! If I HAD the money I would have moved out long ago!!

Now my cam is crashing.FFS!! There's never a day where 1 thing goes right for once..lol but that's life I guess  

I'm hoping to book a holiday soon with one of my friends (that if I have the money) and I CAN get away but I can't feel like myself when I'm at home! 
My sister and my niece are here at the moment so that's cheered me up a little bit I guess coz I don't get to see them that often!! 

Happiness and sadness all at once. I hate feeling like this.

I guess I'm supposed to think oh everything is wonderful, but the truth is that I am sad. I am sad because my husband couldn't participate in the fathers day event because he had to work. but more so I am sad because no one acknowledged that he is also a father regardless of whether he or I have a living child or not. It made me feel sad because he has never been spoken of for Father's Day any year. I have never been acknowledged for being a mom either just because I don't have a living child. What, so I need a living child to PROVE that I gave birth to one??? It's ridiculous. I don't feel like I mean anything to anyone. I mean its fathers day for my brother in law because he has two children, and people were saying happy Father's Day to him but never once have they said happy fathers day to my husband. I am the ONLY one that said it to his face. To make him feel wanted and acknowledged that he IS still a father even though our son is in heaven. A comment was put on facebook saying happy Father's Day to everyone else BUT my husband. 
I still enjoyed myself, with all the family, but sometimes just seeing the kids makes me sad inside because I just feel that I'll never be able to give my mom or dad any grandchildren and because we aren't financially stable right now, especially for doctors visits, and hospital stays and it's not possible for us to support a child if we can barely support ourselves. I want to be able to give our child a good childhood. Buy them whatever they want, give them nice clothes and in order to do that, we need to be financially stable. But I will ALWAYS teach them to be grateful for what they have and not to ask for more as some people are less fortunate than them, and to be polite to say please and thank you. I was fortunate to be given lots of things that I wanted when I was little, and my father was always someone that was wise and wanted the best for us. He wanted US to have things that HE was never able to do in life. He was never able to attend university and I was going at the time. He had said to me that I had to work hard which I tried to do, but I had to drop out because I just didn't feel that it was for me. He never really understood that I wanted to be going to do a course I was happy doing, not something that I just HAD to do because I was told to and that at the time my parents were telling me it was something the had wanted me to do, so I was just trying to make them proud but it didn't make me happy. 
My parents don't ever mention my son Jake, nor have they even said happy mothers day to me or happy fathers day to my husband. When will people realize that I am a person with feelings? I am a person that carried a child. I AM his MOTHER no matter what anyone says, and my husband IS his FATHER. It would just be nice one day if we were acknowledged as parents even though he isn't with us, but I doubt that will ever happen. I had to mention something on the comment and only then was it that someone acknowledged , but why does it have to be AFTER you say something about it? why can't they think for themselves to say it without being reminded?

Is Bullying a part of life?

When sharing a video on social media about two kids that were punching each other, I had noticed on the video that one of the members of the group were videoing the whole event, and this is what I had written on the comment for the post.

"Why is this person recording it and laughing that's what I want to know. Why aren't they in there stopping it from happening? This isn't something to laugh about or go-oo ah about. I know how bad it is. I was bullied at school for the way I looked. For the fact that I wasn't skinny and that I had acne and braces and was teased about being the nerd of the school and was pushed down stairs and had food rubbed in my hair this was over a period of 8 years. It screwed my childhood up but it made me a stronger person. But It's a serious matter that is happening all over the world and for them to stand there and video this poor kid being beaten up is out of order. Yes, he shouldn't be bullying the other kid or anyone for that matter but it doesn't make it right nor does it give the person with the camera reason or the right to record it for the purpose of entertainment."

For a while, I was waiting for people to comment on the video, as usually I get a lot of negative comments, and sure enough, I got one from someone that I used to go to school with that was friends with my brother. This is what he had to say on the matter

"this is not a form of bullying! they are both swinging each other's arms at each other

then he proceeds to say after my good friend commented her opinion.


Vanessa Bourque: That is just wrong. In was also bullied all my life. It was not fun. To me, they should have help then kids and stopped the fight. They should have reported the bully to the headmaster / principal of the school. To bully a little kid or any kid is wrong . I guess you can say that the bully learned his lesson or one can hope he did.

Jutti Miles this is not a form of bullying! they are both swinging each other's arms at each other


Avril Cole Um yes it is. Anything that involves violence or hurting someone else is bullying regardless to what anyone else says. And that's not the point. The point is it should have never happened and the person taking the video should know better


Jutti Miles, it's just life

Avril Cole, it's not life its called not being raised properly

Justin Miles like you said, it made you a stronger person!

Justin Miles so think of the positive element of it

Justin Miles its knock for knock hunni

Justin Miles :)

Avril Cole oh I know it made me a stronger person all I'm saying is it should never happen in the first place and just taking a video of it isn't showing any respect for what is going on nor is laughing about it because in some cases people who are bullied , and even get hit like that go home and take their lives


Vanessa Bourque Jutti Miles People are killing themselves due to bullying. Is that part of life? NO!!!!! It's not part of life. I don't know who told you that bullying is part of life. Bullying is NEVER part of life. One should enjoy life not worry about others name calling, fighting, or anything like that. If you think that bullying is part of life then. Answer this question.....HAVE YOU EVER BEEN BULLIED?

Justin Miles yea Vanessa Bourque And been the bully too. so put that in your pipe and smoke it sweetheart x

Vanessa Bourque Jutti Miles Well, Then how can you say that it's a part of life when you know damn well it's NOT. I have been bullied all my life and still today get bullied online. And it's NOT a part of life SWEETHEART
Justin Miles well pull you socks up and reverse it. only you can change that Darling!!!! ultimately you make the choice on which role you play NO1 else....you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink. you and Avril Cole are in the same raft being blown around in circles (not even a boat) whilst everyone else is on a P&O Stena line saying "cheers" and clinking champers glasses x

Justin Miles stick some tissue down your bra, cake yourself in makeup wear a small tight skirt and put a smile on your face. and ul is just fine x

Justin Miles trust me x

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Why are you trying to be nasty to people? What's in it for you? What's the point in hurting other people? I just don't get why you would go out of your way to say such things to people and have no remorse, no compassion whatsoever for your actions. You say you've grown up? Well maybe you need to work a little bit more on that because grown up  adults don't say such things to other adults. They put the past behind them, but from the fact that you just wrote this a few hours ago, and youre like what..26? You should know better than that.. Yes i've grown up and become a better person but clearly YOU haven't. And I don't need to take shit from YOU!!!!

once upon a dream

Have you ever felt like your lost or alone? That problem keeps coming your way and that nothing you do seems to resolve the issues at hand? Do you feel like you try so hard to please someone else, but you get nothing back in return?...
Sometimes other people will look at you and say, 'hey your life isn't that bad, stop making it out to be something worse than it is'. For those people who don't really know what is going on, try stepping into their shoes for a while and living their life with their husband or wife, and THEN they will have a better understanding as to why their friend is complaining so much. Maybe there IS a reason to complain.
Why is it that a lot of people are so two-faced? And just because they take something they don't like and take it personally. The way I see it is that if you are going to be someone's friend, be their friend, and not their enemy. Don't let yourself become the victim. Don't let people control you. It is your life and you live it how you wish to. When someone is happy with their own life, it has an impact on those around them, and in the things that they do. And always BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!..In life, you can do anything you wish to if you put your mind to it. Never say 'I can't' do something. 'I can't' makes you sound like a weak person when you know that deep inside you CAN do anything and that there isn't a can't if you have never tried it.

Everything happens for a reason. Life isn't about wanting or having, but being happy with the person that you are, and when you feel down, just remind yourself of this fact. Sometimes reasons aren't as clear as we wish them to be. Sometimes we just wish things weren't complicated. Follow your heart. If it tells you something is right, then it's right. Sometimes we follow our head, and make the decision against what our heart was telling us to do, but it can also be the wrong decision to make.

If you love someone, you will do whatever it takes to make them happy. But sometimes, it feels like that is never enough. When you meet someone new, either a relationship or just a friendship, hold on to them. Remember that they came into your life for a reason. Think about how that person makes you feel. Do you feel yourself around them? If so...doesnot that make you think that life would be good with that person. You want to feel comfortable around your Gf/bf/spouse. Do you want to be able to do things freely without having the other question your every move as if they have a right to your life? Yes, they may be your husband or wife, but that doesn't mean they can depict who your friends are, who u hang around with, or who u see. How can u live like that every day? Knowing you can't do anything you want, just because one person says no! Don't get wrapped around their little finger, because as soon as you do, they know they can say anything they want, and you will do it because most of us give in (mostly men). The wives will know they are winning!! But if you stay strong, and stand up for yourself and say NO and do what you want to do anyway, if your husband or wife trusts you, there's no problem. The problem is already there once they start stopping you doing anything. You are strong enough to control and run your own life and not have someone else run it for you.

Live life to the fullest even if it does come crashing down

I am an intelligent person. Well, at least I'd like to think so. My life has never been perfect, but who's has? Even with my flaws in tow I keep pushing forward, showing people that I am capable of things that they may not think I can do. My mind works on levels that other people's minds may not. I have to take my time, and be told in lamens terms for instructions, otherwise, I will not understand what Is being asked of me. I am a little 'slow' and yes I do have to be reminded of things that need to be done because If someone tells me to do something, in 5 mins I won't even recall them saying anything to me. That is how bad my memory has gotten over the years and no amount of brain training games will help that. Believe me, I've tried and its told me I have the memory/mind of a 60-year-old. To hear that when your only 32 makes u depressed. 
Whenever I stay up for hours on end, and I get tired but I still have to do work on the computer and I can barely see what I am writing, or read what's on the page then its time for me to go to sleep but I have trouble sleeping. There is so much going on in my mind that it's hard to quiet it all down. I'll talk to myself silently in my head, conversations going back and forth to myself in the past present and future. I make scenarios up in my head to see how I would react to certain things and fantasize about things that I want to happen in my life. Whether that be a dream job, a business, kids, I can see myself being that person, yet I end up managing to put myself down. 
I've never had a great job, I've never really been good at anything really. well apart from music and that came from a very young age. I have never been confident in myself. I'm not the type of person that can go up to someone and start a conversation. It takes me a while, and until I feel comfortable enough with that person, you won't see me doing it. 
I managed to start doing work for someone, and everything was great to start with but then I had a big family emergency that threw me emotionally and drained me and of course things changed, but the way they made me feel wasn't what I had initially signed up for. I didn't ask for my emotions to be played with, nor did I expect to be spoken to in such a way that put me down and made me feel so low, sometimes to even cry, or laugh at their initial stupidity. I didn't realize a person could do such a thing, especially when my family is involved and my family are  the most important thing to me, more important than doing work for someone I wasn't even getting paid for, and they say they understand but they really don't. Why does life have to be so hard?